I believe in miracles!

I have written a lot about my regret, and even feeling it was a mistake to remarry who I chose, after feeling warnings in my widow-heart, while dating.

But now, I want to write about this little miracle who came from the conflicting choice that I made. He is proof that God will prevail and make beautiful things come out of the ashes and even the “mistakes” of life.

Johnathan is a beautiful, delightful, angelic soul. He has always been incredibly pleasant and so patient with all he has been through.

I was not planning on having any more children after my four van Ormer babies. When I got remarried, and then pregnant with Johnathan a year later, my youngest child was 8, my oldest was 19, and I was supposed to be “done” being a baby-mama, and moving on to having older more self-sufficient children.

But God had other plans for me.

Very different plans for me.

I am so grateful for my precious, beautiful boy, who came from such a tumultuous time.

I do wonder, sometimes, why God gave me another child to care for, as a single mother? This keeps me up at night sometimes, as I ask God questions about His timing and plan.

But even though I have questions… and I always will… I have NO doubt that this child was meant to be with me and my family. He is adored by his brothers and sister, and there is no “half brother” feelings about him.

There may be worldly contentious custody battles here on earth…

But this child is part of my family forever and ever.

No one will ever change that.

And that is just another one of God’s miracles